Today I had another test done, this one was something I've never experienced before. I was so nervous and scared that as the nurse was explaining the procedure to me I had a few tears slip down my cheek. I learned something today, no matter what education I have, no matter what I've experienced in life I will always be human with real feelings and it's okay to be human and show feelings.
And here I am in hospital blue once again, they won't let me take my camera in the operating room, go figure! lol
I know, horrible photo but it's my reality.
The nursing staff were phenomenal, they were right near at all times and even brought me one of those toasty warm blankets, I could have stayed sleeping there all afternoon. My son came to pick me up, I was in no shape to drive and I came home and went straight to bed. So here I sit in the middle of the night, quite awake and not wanting to do homework so it's off to watch a movie, hopefully with my eyes closed!
I hate hospitals but sometimes they are necessary. It's great you got a caring staff to help you through! Our hospital staff could care less about the patients. We would rather drive a half hour away than go to the one in our town!
ReplyDeleteI hope everything is OK. We'll be praying for you! :)
I love that you were able to distract yourself by taking a picture!
ReplyDeleteHope everything is ok soon.
being human is what we are....and letting out those tears, even in times of joy are good for us! I hope all is well, but taking care of yourself is the number one key to a long and healthy life! Hope your week is sunny and bright, and that you watched a good movie!
ReplyDeleteAndy, thank you. I am blessed to have had some awesome staff, once when I was at this same hospital they neglected me in emergency and what a helpless, hopeless feeling. I didn't know why I was in the hospital or how I got there and I didn't have a nurse buzzer to push. I could have died in that small room without them even knowing until hours later. It's a good thing my son came in about an hour after I awoke in a hospital. One day after all this education is complete I'm planning on writing a book, that's going to be some time in coming but I'll get to it. I feel it's a part of what I'm to do with this second chance at life. Hey, then you can write a review of my book on your blog! :-) Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteKathy I never even thought of it that way but you're 100% right, I was totally distracted trying to get a photo for my blog. I'm sure that everything is ok, I hope it is anyways. I didn't even think of the results yet, I was too concerned with getting through the procedure and I'm just going to let this slip out of my mind and go on with life as usual, well not totally as usual... I'm going to quit procrastinating on homework and actually do some writing today! lol If my phone doesn't ring within the next two weeks all is well in my world. Have a great day!
Karen, I watched two good movies! lol I hardly slept last night but now I'm good to go. And yes being human is sometimes humbling but to be humble I have to allow myself to feel the feelings and let them go. It's going to be a fantastic day, no more drinking orange flavored stuff and eating jello. I think that I'll BBQ some steaks just cause I can! Wishing you a magnificent day as well!
I'm not suggesting that you underwent a colonoscopy. However, my experience with that procedure was that you go to sleep and wake up with some really wonderful drugs on-board. It's one of those things that I'd do again without much trepidation. It's certainly a lot better than colon cancer.
ReplyDeleteLL those were some pretty whacky drugs, I went to the grocery store after to buy some popsicles. I came out with some type of wraps, some chocolate, and a few other junk food items. When I got home thankfully I only ate a popsicle and went to bed! I'm still a bit out of it so I'll take full advantage of this silly feeling and attempt to write, something I'm falling behind on. I just won't hit send until I proof it tomorrow. This could be an interesting afternoon.
ReplyDeleteHave fun in that Beemer, it's beautiful!
I've undergone a few tests that I had a lot of trepidation about--not necessarily about the results, but the procedures themselves. I have lots of feelings about those, so I must be human, too! Glad you are okay, and I so appreciate your willingness to share the story. We've all been there, or will be there at some point!
ReplyDelete:( Ugh. I won't tell you how long it's been since I ventured in to a doctor's office. I have a phobia.
ReplyDeleteAnd then...yesterday I HAD to go. And I was a wreck. And my life just seems so strangely weird while you sit and wait for tests and verdicts and such.
Well I say you looked smashing in blue!:)
I hope the tests will be fine. Please stay human with real feelings, showing your feelings and feel good.
ReplyDeleteGalen it can be nerve wracking and the results, what results? lol After going through this I have the results way on the back burner, I'm going to be alright. If I tell myself this enough it's going to be true. The power of positive thinking has reentered my life. :-)
ReplyDeleteDawn if you HAD to go to the doctor as much as I've had to your phobia would disappear. Now I go and chat with my doctor, he no longer has a one sided conversation with one word answers. Keep yourself busy, (what am I telling you that for? You're always busy!) and the time for the results will be here soon enough. Stay positive, as positive as you can and hope for the best. That's about the best advice I can give as I sit here trying to focus on my stupid homework! lol And thank you for the compliment on the look fat hospital blue gown I was wearing! :-)
Hope you have a great day ladies!
Hope all is well my friend.
ReplyDeleteNice capture!
Regards.
xo
Hospital gowns are meant to be unflattering - they distract you from the procedures while you worry what you look like :)
ReplyDeleteI hope all is well, will keep you in my prayers.
You will be fine my friend I just know it.
As for visiting the doctor - I love it - it all changed when my lovely hubby told me it was my body and I was shopping for a service. I could ask whatever I wanted and it if I didn't like it, I could shop around.
Also my annual check-up is my gift to myself.
Keep resting and let yourself recover.
Lots of hugs
Regina I hope so as well. :-) Have a fantastic weekend!
ReplyDeleteBeverly that's what the ugly gowns are all about, I never could quite figure that one out! lol I love what your husband said to you, it's so true. It sounds like your husband is a very wise man, he has to be to have married you! I have been getting plenty of rest, mind you I sent off one essay today and I sure hope it made sense. I'm still not quite right today and hope that this fuzziness lifts by morning. I don't like feeling like this one wee bit. I'm sure that everything is going to be alright, I feel okay and have tons of positive energies left in me so no worries here. Thanks. Have a great weekend!
Hospitals are so horrible.. My mum has just had an operation that she is recovering from at the moment.
ReplyDeleteHope you have a speedy recovery! Good on you for distracting yourself by doing some photography. (:
Saz I don't much care for hospitals neither but they do save lives so I guess they're a good thing. I hope your Mom is recovering nicely and is back home soon.
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